December~

Assalamualaikum~

december? december adalah bulan kegemaran mybe. hoho pelbagai agenda yang berlaku pada bulan disember. 

On 13 december, Syazie Nordzaima Binti Ali Mohamad a.k.a Kak Jie telah pun mendirikan masjid. dengan sekali lafaz kak jie telah pun menjadi isteri kepada Awangku Faizal. walaupun aku tidak menghadiri majlis akad nikah ya tapi hati ku berada disana. cey~ Pada keesokan harinya 14 december, aku, einul, fattah and wan attend nikah kak jie. walaupun rasa kekok menghadiri majlis dengan kawan tapi still had fun. hoho satu meja dengan cikgu myn. bakal pegantin baru pada 21 december 2013. 

 

On 20 december, Sharifah Azmin Binti Wan Hossen selamat diijabkabulkan dengan Ahmad Izuan Hanafi. pheww sebak tengok gambar nikah nya. sik sangka cikgu fav aku semua dah nikah. hm 21 december, aku ikut kakak attend nikah mbok myn. tbh aku kesian tengok apabila kawan kawan aku sikda time nikahnya. selalu outing dengannya tapi apabila hari bahagianya sidak semua sikda. but i know momin will understand :') nasib bait amanina ada datang walaupun agak lambat hihi ^_^

On 31 december, the one who i love, i miss, talk to me and she gave me a meaningful notebook. nampak biasa namun sangat bermakna. my bestfriend since 2011. i don't know what to say cause i'm speechless. hm but buku itu membuat aku terkedu seketika. hm sedih gilak gilak. 

tadik time abis spbt tunggu bapak ambik then aku terus baca buku yang dalam keta. sifat keingin tahuan tentang buku itu aku terus baca isi buku itu. i just..... hm sikpat tahan airmata ketika baca buku ya. dear you, thankyou so much for the meaningful notebook. thankyou so much. i appreciate it.

i always remember our memories together. no worries. everyday i keep on thinking about you. idk why i have to miss a person who don't need me in her life. lets be stranger again?  hmm idk why but kau tahu perangai aku. mn aku dah salahfaham dengan orang ya. susah untuk aku membuat first move to talk. but i'llt ry since u said u will follow my step. i'll try walaupun ya bukan sikap aku yang sebenar.

no need to ask for my forgiveness. cause kita sama sama salah :) i know tok adalah asam garam persahabatan. bulak la mun orang berkawan tapi sik kelahi nak tapi.... aaa idk la. hudaaaaa, tbh i don't want you to end this friendship~ but nvm if u want to end this. u have ur right to choose right?

Huda Farhana Azmi, jangan pernah menyesali perkara yang dah berlaku. apa yang kita ada sekarang hargailah sebelom perkara yang dulu terjadi lagi :)

tbh, aku mok kau jadi kawan selamanya but if it meant to be, it will be..... :') 

walaupun sekarang rasa awkward jak nak tegur dengan kau tapi aku coba. ntahlah. hey you. if u have ur problem just tell me walaupun a little bit awkward.... i know i'm not the one who made ur year, but i hope u'll always remember our memories in 2013. suka duka telah kita lalui bersama.

dear bestfriend, words are not enough to thank you for all that you've done for me. i just want u to know that i miss you so much. glad to know that we're in the same class. 4b1~ i hope we will be okay soon. i hope we can go back to the way we used to be~  

Assalamualaikum~ :)

Love Hurts :')

Assalamualaikum :')

tbh, i miss Alias. hmm it's almost 1 year  i'm waiting for him. hmmmm oh Ahmad Alias Bin Benjamin. I want to tell you that I love you so much. that day, i really want to talk to you, but nevermind. dengan melihat anda, hati mula senang~ :') 

I look at you, I look at you but you’re getting farther away. I beg, I cling but you’re getting farther away~

Even my scratched up scars know, so without saying a single word, I just look at you, who is leaving.... can you feel me alias?

Crying again, crying again, my love who I loved like my own life
Crying again, crying again, I try to steady my heart and hold it in but love is crying again~

You’re leaving, you’re leaving
Without a word, you’re leaving me......

I should have cared for you a little more, I should have loved you a little more, A regretful love is leaving me :')

I call, call, call out to you, I hold and hold onto you but you turn away, It hurts so much that I can’t breathe ~~~

Letting you go, letting you go, I’m letting go of you, who is strengthlessly leaving
Letting you go, letting you go, I’m strenghlessly letting go of this foolish love  ♫

How i wish i can meet a boy like Kim Tan~
"My heart hurts! I'm having a hard time and missing her. Living is meaningless!" -Kim Tan

if someone could love me like Kim Tan does to Eun Sang........

can everyone feel me? erghhhh it's hurt me...

keep telling yourself that you are strong enough to let it go even the fact that you are weak. you just have to stay strong and just try.

you know what, enough with the tears. you can't have someone back in your life & accept the fact that everything has changed. help yourself.

I want to hate you but I cant. I want to leave u but im not strong enough. I love u, so much. So I choose to stay even tho it hurts..

bye. Assalamualaikum~

Back to December~

Assalamualaikum pembuka bicara~

today, 1st december. it's december already. one month left before 2013 coming to an end. definitely excited for 2014.

so, next year akan jadi student form 4. wowww excited pun ada juak tapi hm dijangka 19 december tok result pmr keluar. seriously, nervous yang teramat sangat. mun result bagus sikpa juak. but, mun sik bagus, i know semua nya akan berubah. hmm

a month left before 2013 coming to an end. going to explore more during holidays. 2014 definitely a year for me to change and find happiness hm

next year, sikpat nak bermain main macam dolok hm. dari form 1 sampe form 3 still nak bermain. hm maka nak pmr dolok pun still tidur dalam kelas. main kedak miak kecik. hahaha i miss that moment :')

seriously, i miss pmr hm rindu kenangan ya. hm rindu nak belajar sama sama dengan kawan dalam satu kumpulan. then hari pertama salam salaman dengan guru time pagi ya.berzikir, baca doa. hmm then lepas semua paper ya gago berbincang apa segalanya. then rasa down. nyalah dikpun. haiyaaa~ but happy yang teramat sangat apabila hari terakhir menduduki exam khb. hari terakhir ya perasaan sikpat diungkap dengan kata kata. seriously, rasa lega yang teramat sangat. lega bukannya sebab apa. lega kerana dapat memikul beban dengan baik selama 3 tahun. bukan senang nak pikul bebanan selama 3 tahun  hmm

back to the title, back to December :') pelbagai agenda akan berlaku pada bulan december. Pada 14 december, cikgu kesayangan ku akan mendirikan masjid. hm berasa gembira yang teramat sangat. hari yang aku tunggu-tunggukan telah pun tiba.

Pada 19 December dijangka result pmr keluar. apakah nasib ku selepas ini? adakah aku layak masak science stream or just kelas semi science or kelas sastera or.......? hmmm doakan yang terbaik untuk aku.

Pada 21 december, Cikgu Sharifah Azmin pulak yang akan mendirikan rumah tangga. rasa happy pun ada juak tapi perasaan sedih pun ada juak. sebab apa sedih, for sure kamekrang segeng dah sikda kawan pake outing agik. maybe dapat but sik selalu. hm cikgu myn dah rasa kakak dikpun. dah rasa akrab dengannya then after this, mesti rasa kekok dengannya. but aku excited nak attend nya pun wedding. aku doakan agar semua yang dirancang berjalan dengan lancar :) 

then selepas 21 december. i am very sure that  i'll be busy with my spbt. hm so, i love december. hehe walaupun cuti tok sikda pegi melancong kedak orang lain. but, i'm happy hehehe

I go back to December, turn around and make it alright~ I go back to December all the time :')

and thanks to everyone who made my day~ thankyou. 

After this, aku malas nak lalek dengan orang. buat kerja dikpun. walaupun ada masalah but pretend macam sikda masalah~ i will change into a new person :') 

 bye November. pelbagai dugaan yang telah aku lalui. suka dan duka. so, forgive and forget :')

2013. i have met a bunch of new people. people come and people go. i lose some, i gain some. experienced lot of things. makes me stronger.

Selamat tinggal November. and Hello December.... Assalamualaikum :')